crystal blue #4 - you're the unexpected wind

I thought I would always fall in love with boys with deep voice, sun-tanned skin, and a brazen masculinity. I thought I wanted them to be the leader, to be the one who takes the step forward and shamelessly hold my hand.

But your eye smile above the pale skin, your high tone laughter against the overbearing crowd noises, and your soft steps on the surface of cold floor tiles.

Then I realized that it's not about boys, it's about you. I guess I love you enough as you.

Eta Wardana,

Depok, 13 Agustus 2019