crystal blue #3 - you're next to the beginning

There are papers—a lot of them—on my bed. I work with pillow under my chin, blanket covering the tip of my feet. On the screen of my laptop, there is a name I would never forget. But amongst the countless papers spread around me, your name is written in invisible ink.

You are there, but I don't want you to be there—not yet.

Eta Wardana

Depok, 13 Agustus 2019